I don’t want to live, but I do NOT want to unalive either. This is such a messed up space to be in. (No self harm. But ideation thoughts are definitely a struggle.)
Chronic pain since 15, literally half my life, 30now. Severe back injury, herniated discs, pinched nerves. My financial position is just as shit (disability). I have no idea how I would survive on my own if it ever came to that. Like I legit wouldn’t have enough money for Rent AND Food, let alone anything else.
I don’t know what to do or how to move forward.