this is gonna be a little odd, but i’ve had horrible nightmares about my father SA’ing me. I’ve been wetting the bed out of the blue for years (ive heard it’s a symptom of sexual trauma but idk if i’m reading into it) i’ve had multiple cases of sleep paralysis where i felt horrible pain in my hips and it felt like someone SA’ed me, porn scares me sometimes? like if i see it out of context or something it will genuinely GENUINELY terrify me. i don’t know if i cant remember being sexually assaulted? i don’t know if it happened or if im reading into things and its all a coincidence? also the dreams i had, i do not think they are real memories? what does this mean? if there’s any questions i can answer that can help me figure out what this means please lmk
