I’ve struggled with my mental health since I can remember . I would consider myself lucky and a “mild” case . (Self diagnosis, I know , bad ! ) Not properly diagnosed, she said she put me down as adjustment disorder with depression and anxiety . Btw she’s still a student and its only our first meeting . I haven’t done anything spectacular with my life , more of a dropout mediocre at best type . I’ve had ups and downs throughout . Used booze to cope but now sober 2.5 years .
I had a really hard week and didn’t go to work . Don’t have insurance but when I went to talk to hr about my absences she had me make an appointment for counseling that the company pays for (5 sessions) with a mental health counselor . It’s something I’ve thought about doing for years , but just never thought it was bad enough , until now . (Last resort feeling)
So I went , she was nice . I told her that thru research I knew the basics ; eat healthy , get sleep , exercise etc. I do some of these sometimes . I told her I felt hopeless and like nothing could help bc I don’t have motivation or energy to keep up with these things . She just kept giving me advice I had already known , set a timer , alarms , get outside etc . I know there’s no magic advice she can give or a magic pill to take , and I feel worse after the session .
I just feel even more hopeless now . She said to use willpower . . . I explained that when I’m feeling down that doesn’t exist and it’s really hard to do more than just the bare minimum like take care of my dogs .
I’m afraid to take meds and I’m not interested in narcotics . I feel lost .
TL;DR I finally had the courage to go to a counseling session but feel worse than before . If everything they are telling you are things you’ve attempted and failed , what is there left to do ?
Just a vent . I guess maybe I’m looking to see if anyone has had this experience .
Thanks ya’ll .