My household where I lived with my parents was extremely chaotic and there was arguing going about every day, almost. So that's why I'm asking, do you miss arguing with someone? What is the use of a partner anyway? I rarely dreamed about one, in addition I listened to some stupid psychologists and they guaranteed I will repeat what my parents did, which I was angry about it then, but now I'm thankful. I also will not go to any therapist and I believe NO ONE who tells me that marriage is not all about arguing. They did not live my life and no one has a clue about anything, not even the therapists, they are all just smiles and poker faces and nods. Talked to some relatives about this and they said I was too sensitive. I truly have no loving feelings toward anyone anymore.