Under extreme stress few months ago I felt a shooting electric shock go up my spine (from the neck up) in to my brain. I shouted animalistically from it because it was so sudden and strong. My whole body twitched from the power of it. It happened 2-3 times in few seconds. Ive had brain zaps before, and wasnt even on any medication prior or during. This was like that, but times 10.
Ever since I have felt like I dont exist, that Im dead. I just cry every day, begging for death. I have zero interest in anything. I am a ghost of a human, on autopilot. I have severe trauma, been depressed my whole life and I have never felt this unhumane. Its like what makes me human, is dead and left my body in that moment. Like soul death.
I even went to get an mri, it came back normal.