What the actual….

Hello all, I am a 39yo American male in a weird transition in life. During the past 25 years I worked my butt off and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. I gave everything I made to my family. At first it was my immediate family, then it was my spouse and children. I was raised that’s what men did. Now that I am approaching 40, my second half of life, I find myself in a really weird transition period. I guess this is what some would call a midlife crisis, but it doesn’t feel chaotic. I am battling myself mentally to be productive and work smarter to make more money, however at the same time I’m trying to find the point. My career is fulfilling but I think I’m becoming burnt out. I work in IT and love my coworkers, but it seems like the constant struggle to learn all the new technologies; and honestly I’m no longer motivated to do so. When I think about what I really want in my life is quite different from where I am. I live in DC, a busy crowded city. I want to move onto 100 acres in the mountains or hills. I would rather raise horses, build furniture, grow my own food and live a more simplistic life. The issue is, if I decide to go that route I wonder if my family would come along that journey with me. My wife and daughters seem quite comfortable with the city life. Looking for help from anyone who understands being burnt out, stressed out, and generally tired of how their first half of life was lived.

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