If it is not for my parents I don’t know if am alive. I love them and they love me too, and if i somehow die then they will be beyond sad, but except that is there anything else? Y brother will take care of them when they get old so that’s not a problem, so why bother. I will graduate this year and then probably will do masters or get a job. I was a pretty smart student in high school, did pretty good college as well, but never had a gf. Those last few months all i am doing is getting drunk, smoking weeds and studying and after college what will i do, work during day and get drunk at night. I want to do it man but my parents are good people