Hey guys so i got off lexapro 89 days ago after having panic attacks and extreme fatigue. I dealt with this months after eventually it got better but i did have my cortisol levels checked and they were initially baseline than after the acth came back suggesting adrenal insufficiency. I’ve had times where i felt i couldn’t stand randomly and felt like i needed to lay down, that slowly started to become less frequent but now im in this state where i always feel off like im always in a dream, when i work it is much much worse, it feels like a physical thing completely outside of anything a coping B mechanism like grounding yourself can help with. I talked to this initial doctor that checked my cortisol than i ended up getting another and he said that because my blood pressure was fine it wasn’t that but ended up giving me a referral to an endocrinologist like the original doctor wanted to begin with. I feel like im always like mentally drained and in a dream like i barely exist, not necessarily tired but just like messed up mentally to the point that i have no control. I get anxiety about it sometimes or sometimes i just feel really scared when im tired, like everything just will feel like im in a nightmare. It’s a hard feeling to describe this “fear” because im not even sure thats exactly what it is necessarily, it’s a very subtle feeling, but feels most like how you would in a nightmare. But wither way it feels hard to push myself hard to offer effort or go out of my way for things. All i know is im scared and cant live like this but its so hard to describe how i feel everyday to people, like i just don’t know if i can get out of this because no one understands it and its taking forever to see doctors. Im scared im getting used to this also because this is no way to live like it cant be. Also yes i have a history of mental health stuff but i never dealt with general anxiety before lexapro and also i have always been able to recognize what was mental or not, i’ve gotten to a point where i question my own sanity. What are the proper steps to take, it feels hard to do things i need to do sometimes. How do i get out of this can anyone relate to this experience? I feel best in the mornings but slowly feel mentally exhausted like im barely alive experiencing things, like it will just feel overwhelming but im used to it despite how bad it is.
