i’ve been doing this since i was about 9, im 15(f) now and the only thing changed is the intensity. This isn’t sexual, i don’t try to think like this, my mind wanders to this automatically. Usually common scenarios are me getting stabbed in the eye and going blind, overdosing on drugs, committing suicide with a boy or friend (that one’s the most common), having a miscarriage, getting kidnapped, starving to death or being groomed. Almost in all these scenarios I’m viewing these situations in the eyes of someone else, like a cousin or friend. I don’t even have to be upset to think about these things. I just wanna know why I guess.
