At first they started off as thoughts and now they feel different like the thoughts no longer scare me and they are violent thoughts about hurting people. Don’t really want to specify what these thoughts are about. I feel like I am gonna go crazy. I feel like killing myself and finally living in peace. Had these thoughts since covid but the thoughts change. Now they have become violent to the point where I just become numb. My hands feel this weird feeling like an urge and it scares me. But again I don’t feel that fear like I did the first time.
