Recently ive been having this thoughts that friendship and partnerhiod would hurt me and i better isolate myself from it.
And even before the thoughts i would struggle to form meaningful relationships, but now it seems harder.
Dont get me wrong, im not introverted and i do not lack any social skills. Its just that i cant feel close to any person. Its like i have too mqny relationships but none of them are close.
Idk the reason but the acceptence and thoughts started when i helped a friend out and he started to ignore me after that. We're still friends and he came to me first, but i barely feel close to him even tho i think its getting better( very slowly).