No emotion hits me as intense as sadness. It feels like I dont have capacity to feel happiness, love and other positive emotions. But that feeling of heartbreak that deep wrenching feeling in my chest is the most intense feeling. I used to be even more depressed teenager sometimes I miss that, that heartbreak. Consuming sad media and writing things full of despair makes me feel something. I seek it out. I don't know why or how to deal with this. I want to feel happy and show love back to the people I am close to but I just dont have anything to give. What do I do
