for the past few years I'v been on an emotional downhill and first attempted to kill myself at 12 via hanging. Of course I didn't die but the thought of taking my life has continued on after that. way back in February of this year I was put into a psychiatric hospital for two and a half weeks, and since then I have been on medication and have been seeing a therapist, But even after all that I still can't get the thought killing myself out of my head. I wake up everyday feeling worse off than the day before. It's like I'm being sucked into a vortex and the only escape is death. I don't really know if I can take much more of it, but I'm also scared of being sent back to the hospital. I feel like such a failure. what can I even do?
