For some reason, my mind appears to have a negativity lens or and general low mood especially when I’m tired. I’ve managed to observe this mood as separate from me, so I am intellectually unbothered by it. However, it feels like there is always resistance, and for a few minutes at a time, my mind’s mood can sometimes bring my thoughts down with it before I mentally check it. So while moods come and go, I’d still rather not have this down feeling.
One interesting thing is that this filter is removed when I drink coffee, and I feel at ease. A lot of people I know don’t seem to view coffee like this, so I’m wondering if there is some underlying mental condition I have that could be a reason for this.
Like for others, coffee still builds a tolerance for me, and unfortunately, drinking for too many days straight leads to a worse condition than the default condition. Therefore, I use it as needed.
Anybody experience the same thing or have any idea what this means?