(32m) I was used and abused for 20+ years and I thought I was over it, recently I found this magical thing called love. Like pure unconditional love with the most amazing woman, I literally couldn't have ever imagined being loved by some one so fucking amazing yet I always question my self worth. I find my self doubting my worth now more then ever and I'm afraid I'll burn everything down so I don't have to go through the pain of loosing her. Why go up when you have to come back down right? I'm sick of being mentally unstable and ruining everything good I have. why can't I just be fucking normal