just got back from therapy and feel absolutely awful. I dont know what to do. We are trying to work on changing the thoughts that are ingrained in my brain about childhood trauma and create new beliefs. I guess to beat the shame and all. But today, I just couldn't do it. I couldn't even read what we had written. Ex. "I was a child, and had the right to be a child" instead of the negative thinking. But I just couldn't even say a single word. I feel worse, just awful and empty. Feels like all this work is just pointless and I don't know what to do